1 post from November 2007

Well, a year and change.  I just spent all of 10 minutes reviewing what I had written here before as was sort of astounded by how far I have not come.  I am still struggling with creating and utilizing a support network, I am still struggling with how much to close off certain past relationships and I am still without any significant faith to speak of.

How depressing is that?  That in a year's time I have not found the time to adequately process and address those issues?  Granted, I have closed more doors and am actually really close to just sayig "To hell with this, I don't need the negative energy these people bring to my life", as it seems the cons of hanging on to past relationships threatens to overwell the pros. Additionally, I am getting better at least attempting to ask for help. It just still tends to freak out other people.  I suppose I am supposed to be the one who has their shit together (how scary is that?). And the faith thing bothers me less, just through time I suppose. People just turned out to be not as cool as I wanted them to be, and there it is.

On the other hand, I graduate in May. I'm writing professionally. My grades have been improving. I bought a new car and am planning for my future. That counts as something, right?